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FRANKIE JACOB BLOG! This blog is create to keep sad and laughter life of mine. the content consist of love, sex, argument, fighting, friend, family and perhaps enemy.

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I'M BACK!~
Okay, first thing im going say "hi" to everyone and i'm back to blogger after a year. Why im back? seriously recently my memory are getting poor? i wish i could write down things that happen to me from today onwards till one day i can't remember anything:)

Im enjoyed my life in this past one year with my friends. Things always happen like a thunder strike. i gain alot of friends and i lost alot of friends too. In my life there's up and down as well there's people hurting me but in the end what i have learnt is to improve my life. My body is getting worst. i have run away lot of time for my check up past few months. When i started to run away is not i scared. But i feel i don't wanna waste my time running around hospital. it's a nightmare from young till now. Forget about this then. I'm have changed my looks after my army. I've slim down and even not the nerdy look anymore. Nowadays, people can't even recognize me while walking across me. I have tried to change myself in this past one year. Honestly speaking I've change lot, even my 9yrs bff "Shawn" told me that he can't understand me well right. i might look simple but inside my heart it's much more complicated. but my personality are still the same: friendly, kind, helpful and etc.

Currently im having a relationship. Im happy with this relationship. We know each other for 4 months and start dating for a month. During my birthday we started our relationship. i feel touched and treasure this alot. There's lot of people don't bless us. but i don't give a damn. As long im happy with you that's all. Sometime what people told me some stuffs it's affect me alot, still i always told myself it's other people mouth and make myself to be positive. Yesterday i've make a mistake. I just broke a promise between ours, not to go clubbing without anyone of us going. You guys can say im bastard, asshole or whatever. I have my reason.. my reason is not an excuse for me to cover my mistake. Yes, everything take two hands to clap. I would say is my fault. My friend wanna go club and she don't feel like going home that early and she decided to go club. Yesterday in the club, only my friend "emily" know what's my mind thinking about. im trying to protect myself and as well emily. I don't wish to explain what is my thought cause i don't think you wanna bother to know about it and as now you are still flaming about it. What i would say, yesterday my role and my duty is to take care my friend till she reach home. Yes, you trust me. I know the trust between ourself. The whole night i don't do anything wrong and im not enjoying myself. I never pull you into it by saying you are a high profile and it's just an example. what i mean, everyone know us and i should behavior myself, i did. Yes, i broke a promise but i never let you down by doing those nonsense stuffs. I don't pray and hope, I just wanna explain everything. Towards me, explain all those is not to cover my mistake.... then, i feel that the more i explain it's becoming worst.. i speechless for myself. don't even know what i can do right now. i have put myself into your shoes and i know what's the feel. im not doing a good to fixing it back the promise. it's my fault again, i just wanna you to understand how i feel and what i stand for during yesterday night. . .

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[Signing off @ 1540hrs]