HOLY BIBLE !?
i was reading a holy bible book this afternoon!~
but i didn't read finish the whole book..
can't believe myself was reading this book~
"JACOB is a quite person and he lie to his father because his mother ask to do so!"
i dunno when i died, i will go HEAVEN or HELL?
was listening Anson Hu - Waiting For You.
and this is the last song you giving me!
tomorrow is cohesion and also my medical appointment!
but i have change the date to 2nd march...
the whole day was talking with juanWei and reading book..
but i always understand what he say den others..
this the end...
seriously end!...
okay! what finally i wanna say:
i not a good guy! and i believe i will go to hell?..
i believe i have alot of sins!?
i can't give you what others can give you!
i really dunno what i going to do and how i going to do?
i believe if a family have a FATHER and MOTHER,
for guy you will learn how your father care and treat your mother well..
for girl as well you will learn from your mother!
how 'm going to learn!?
and i believe this time/timing is not for me to have a relationship.!
WHY!?
i need to settle-down myself and my family!
my brain is FULL of questions...
how 'm going to earn money for my future study?
how 'm going to settle-down?
how 'm going to prepare my study?
how 'm going to face you/future/girlfriend?
i dun want to have quarrel/unhappy/sadness life after-on!
i know you like to talk in phone, seriously i try!
seriously i try to make time for you!
BUT i found i can't do any good things for you den other!
ya, i know you are easily satisfied. but i just say i can't!
i'm not/can't forget everything very easily..
i must face it and i know i cant break down at this time..
even know i wish you dun leave me but i still must be quite and normal reaction..
thanks for what you say in the blog, i will rmb it! cheers!
and hope you all the best too!
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