LOST COMMUNICATION WITH EVERYONE EVEN PARENT !
due to the previous post, im not saying you..
i just write what i think!...
i know you wont die because of me! haha.
today the doctor took out so much blood from me!..
going for blood test!
i think i going to die soon.. haha
now only i can say DAMN WEAK :(
today told my mum about the school fees increasing!
she answer me back alot of things i dun want to hear! LOL.
i want to let her know, you are my mum and i'm your son~
i really need your help this time...
and this must be your parent job, why always im the one who thinking of it.
seriously how im going to earn more den 10 thousand dollar for everything!
and is cannot be one! wth..
i just only 20 years old..
a very young boy/guy sia!
and i really must do all the things or do all the father stuffs.
i fucking hate this...
you are my parent, i really need your support and money...
but i can't say it loud... there will be a war if i say it loud.. haha
things i want, i will always earn it by myself..
im not born in the golden spoon or wooden spoon.
i think is a STONE spoon. haha
im just a normal spoon lah..
guys, i saying out nasty words or words that can hurt you guys so sorry..
i dun mean that! you all know that??! haha.
i really wanna let you GOD know what i need.
i try my fucking best doing things that everyone dun really need to do...
GOD, i can dun go heaven, but just ended my life if still carry on this! haha.
i really hope someone will help to support my "NEEDs"..
"WANTs", i will support it by myself..
i will returning back one..haha.
today damn sux.. over slept, was waiting cab for 20 mins!
the taxi driver eye damn cock.. putting the green light still dun stop.
almost got 6 to 7 cab is the same..
can earn money still dun want..
still got jaming.. cab fare going to reach $30.
dunno why all of they must wait after 7am den they will stop..
walau. ni na de lah..
fucker wilson heng, while i was resting in office.
he took my phone and see every of my message.
and still tell everyone! FUCKER FUCKER FUCKER!
yeah, today fell out early, after seeing the doctor.
my sir let me going back home.. :)
i was at reading book at Enous interchange...
i was talking to myself while looking at the mirror!
i going to insane soon!~
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One Republic - Secrets
I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess
Til' all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw wink, no
I've been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

My god, amazing how we got this far
It's like we're chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars
And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight, too cold
I don't really like my flow, no, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

Oh, got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'mma tell you everything

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don't need another perfect line
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm gonna give all my secrets away
All my secrets away, All my secrets away

left 12 more days to ORD !

COHESION AT SELETAR CAMP AND AMK HUB !
my body and leg is so itch right now,
blood coming out from my body!
i think must be the foods or the dog hair.. haha
mm, not bad.. at least enjoy my last cohesion!:)
was meeting jessica.
having dinner with her...
and was chatting with her.
OMG..
she told me poly school fee increasing to $2500 per semester!
and i need to spent alot of money in the first semester!
fuck sia! so expensive.. my life is going to crazy soon..
Seriously PLEASE i saw the msg,
im scared of messaging you sia!
dun Threatening this on me!
i will keep quite, dun say out some words!
see, believe me i not a good/nice guy at all...
i know you won't do that! i know you have the right and your choice..
i wanna say yes, i believe in fate.
but dun try too hard!
just relax and let it go... normally...
im tired! not "not enough sleep".
i wanna be single!
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left 13 more days to ORD !

HOLY BIBLE !?
i was reading a holy bible book this afternoon!~
but i didn't read finish the whole book..
can't believe myself was reading this book~
"JACOB is a quite person and he lie to his father because his mother ask to do so!"
i dunno when i died, i will go HEAVEN or HELL?
was listening Anson Hu - Waiting For You.
and this is the last song you giving me!
tomorrow is cohesion and also my medical appointment!
but i have change the date to 2nd march...
the whole day was talking with juanWei and reading book..
but i always understand what he say den others..
this the end...
seriously end!...
okay! what finally i wanna say:
i not a good guy! and i believe i will go to hell?..
i believe i have alot of sins!?
i can't give you what others can give you!
i really dunno what i going to do and how i going to do?
i believe if a family have a FATHER and MOTHER,
for guy you will learn how your father care and treat your mother well..
for girl as well you will learn from your mother!
how 'm going to learn!?
and i believe this time/timing is not for me to have a relationship.!
WHY!?
i need to settle-down myself and my family!
my brain is FULL of questions...
how 'm going to earn money for my future study?
how 'm going to settle-down?
how 'm going to prepare my study?
how 'm going to face you/future/girlfriend?
i dun want to have quarrel/unhappy/sadness life after-on!
i know you like to talk in phone, seriously i try!
seriously i try to make time for you!
BUT i found i can't do any good things for you den other!
ya, i know you are easily satisfied. but i just say i can't!
i'm not/can't forget everything very easily..
i must face it and i know i cant break down at this time..
even know i wish you dun leave me but i still must be quite and normal reaction..
thanks for what you say in the blog, i will rmb it! cheers!
and hope you all the best too!
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left 14 more days to ORD !

GOOD PERSON, YOU'RE MY FIRST LOVE !
mummy say today is "REN LE".
so happy birthday everyone!
just reach home.
Yesterday was was last third duty in my life :)
having a nice duty! dinner and breakfast quite nice!
i still not feeling well. hell! :(
i not going to see doctor!
later going to meet Sebastian, being force!~ haha
next Tuesday not need to go camp! :D
but going to watch movie at AMK hub.!
we watching Percy Jackson & The Lightning Thief!
i watch before! dunno who is the one who choose this movie! LOl..
and also my LAST cohesion!
now watching Super Junior MV! LOL.. damn funny!
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T/ARA & SUPERNOVA - Time To Love
Good Person You're My First Love,
The Person Who taught Me Love,
Never Forget You, I Will Remember You.
I Only remember You.

left 17 more days to ORD !

WISH EVERYONE A HAPPY CNY & VALENTINE DAY !
Yesterday was eating fourth round of steamboat! :)
was watching movie with Sebastian and Anne at TM.
we watch "TRUE LEGEND" damn freaking nice! should watch it! :)
later going to ah ma house! =.="
they asking us to go there around 4plus in the evening!
their whole family was at there! LOL!
i was looking for this song!
super nice! :)
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Avril lavigne - Alice
Trippin out
Spinning around
I'm underground
I fell down
Yeah I fell down

I'm freaking out, where am I now?
Upside down and I can't stop it now
Can't stop me now, oh oh

I, I'll get by
I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I, I won't cry

I found myself in Wonderland
Get back on my feet, on the ground
Is this real?
Is this pretend?
I'll take a stand until the end

I, I'll get by
I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I, I won't cry

I, I'll get by
I, I'll survive
When the world's crashing down
When I fall and hit the ground
I will turn myself around
Don't you try to stop me
I, and I won't cry

ONE MORE DAY GOING TO CHINESE NEW YEAR !
Just finish eating first round steamboat, still got many round to carry on!
mum damn ON, early 6am went to market buy some stuffs.
after that she start preparing steamboat and tang yuan!.
every year this time, our family will preparing steamboat!
morning will eat until night! :)
yesterday in camp was doing area cleaning.
i was damn piss off and walk pass my sir and say shut up!
after camp, rush to farmWay 1.
went to collect, if never collect the person will run away!
after that went to whiteSand,
help my mum bought a THANK YOU card and a signature pen for the doctor..
NOT cheap at all! went to cotton on, bought a jean cost s$60.
meet mum at supermarket, was buying alot of foods...
AND carry back home! freaking tired!
meet sebastian after 10.. was discussing about the website!
drink alot of chrysanthemum tea..
reach home feel like vomiting, faster well on bed and sleep. ha.
ya, you feel Disappointed,unappreciated!
my fault! everything i do is my fault! haha:)
i must to help my mum before doing my own stuffs!.
she was alone doing all for the whole day!
haha!.. okay!
reader,
if you going to buy a gift to your best friend or lover!
she/he cant meet you that time! you will feel Disappointed, unappreciated.
that's right! will you keep for another chance or give it to another friend?
haha:) can anyone tell me your answer? :)
i have a song, really nice! always listening from 987fm!
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Owls City - Vanilla Twilight
The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you,
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'll send a postcard to you dear,
Cause I wish you were here.

I watch the night turn light blue,
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find repose new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

CHANGE MY BLOG LINK !
yeah, i have change the link~
im back to blog!:)
thanks for the love, i have learn alot of things from you~
Everythings will stay inside my memories~
if cannot, can be friend or brother..
BUT i always believe "fate"..
now cannot does not mean future cannot too!
haha.. Clarin going back aust!
"good luck, enjoy your trip!"
rmb buy things for me!
she so crazy! LOL..
ask her girlfriend go out with me this Sunday!=.="
CANNOT! haha..
nan ren KTV! nice!:)


男人KTV


Cheryl Cole - Fight For this Love

ENJOY! :)